How afraid would you be
if you came home and the
Key did not work?
That no matter what you did
that you weren't forgiven.
How long would you stare
at the closed door, hoping.
Hoping that it would magically open.
Nothing works like that in real life.
Would you scream, cry or bang on the door?
Doors close all the time they say
but no one expects it to happen.
Time to pick yourself up
and move on. All you have left
is what's on your back and your wits.
Follow the signs, it is time
to move on.

Everything Changes,
an that is a scary thing.
Sitting here looking at
the boxes in the corner,
I'm afraid.
What do I keep,
What do I change?
Is this another stage of life
or just the same thing?
looking at the things
makes me wanna scream
My teddy bear doesn't judge
but sometimes I need somebody else.
the time is ticking
and the sound is beating
at the same rate as my heart.
Can't I just go back to yesterday?
No.
Down the wormhole
across the galaxy it seems
back to where i was where everything and nothing changes.
Even going home,
I'm not sure it's even worth it.
So I journey on through the boxes heading down familiar paths
Maybe the distress will be worth it.

She sits at the mirror,
pulling out pins one by one.
Her long hair cascades down her back.
She takes off her earrings,
Kerplunk! Kerplunk! Kerplunk! Kerplunk!
they plop into the dish.
her braceletsare pulled off with care,
then her rings are put onth their tand.
Hollowly she stares
at her reflection as she takes her necklaces off.
Slipping out of the dress
and standing bare,
She wonders if everyon
can she that she is broken.
Tonight is the night that
not even soothing jazz can calm.
Everything in her life seemed out of order.
From every freckle on her nose
to the hand-like bruises on her hips.
What is left of her smudged makeup
is taken off wit a few swipes.
The day is fast approaching.
Nothing is ever simple
for the Lady of the Night.

Now I lay me down to sleep,
The day is over,
The moon is shining
full and clear.
She sings me lullabies
oh so dear.

And pray the lord,
Night is calling,
the stars are shining,
telling tales,
expecting a new day to appear.

My soul to keep,
Dawn is coming,
new day here,
precious moments,
held so dear.

It's my first poem in a while so i thought I'd put it behind an lj cut.
enjoy
Falcon

( Darling Didn't You Know? )

not so happy poems but... whatever. the first one is yelling at my mother and the second just is... - Falcon of Remembrance
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Ages pass - War continues.
The foolish will try to lead,
the halfbreeds will fall again.
They follow the path set before them
without thought of consequences.
The halfbreeds will fall if
they forget the three elder races.
The elder raes may lead
a culling if the halfbreeds
do not make wise choices.
May the halfbreeds have wise choices;
So the elders do not awaken their wrath.

Falcon of Prophecies

Did rituals and shit today... now i'm kinda just here... so here's the "disturbing" poetry

Samhein has come;
and soon it shall go.
The day to honor the dead;
and the end of the year.
It is not a beginning of new;
but of the nothingness in between.
Confusion and apathy reign supreme;
after the gremlins and ghouls;
have had their day.

Drums beat around the fire
and around build it higher
Samhein night the death of the Green comes
Autumn harvest comes and goes
wind is cold
Pray the time between times shall end soon,
that Yule will come to begin things anew.

Emptyness glitters like emerald jewels
The Green Man offers his challenge
On the day he begins to rule
a year and a day shall pass
Riddles to ponder, quests to defeat.
War drums to ride upon.
Will the youth ever learn
not to trust the Green Man's Path?

Strip the Rowan make a wreath
mount it on the door
be good child
and you will be safe.
No changeling shall be
here in your place.
Ghouls and demons ride the night
Pray and be good
until first light.
If you hear the Banshee's wailing
or the pooka is calling your song,
Pray and don't move.
first light will come soon.
Honor us your parents.
Pray and wear rowan
keep cold iron near your bed
Don't you worry your pretty little head.
No changeling shall be in your place love.
Pray and be safe....

The last one was written completely on a whim

Ghost Wings
The music plays low
The curtains shift in a light breeze
The woman waltzes
Without a partner
Ghost wings floating behind her
Why does lonely suit so well?
To live alone
And call upon the ghosts
Of souls and happiness
For company.


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Two dozen kilss
bloodied souls
haunting, moaning
it's killing thme
though they are allready dead
imaginairy or not
they will kill
the remorseful
revelling in the bloodshed
and moving on again

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Thousand tears fall
on wounds so deep
souls torn asunder
not fixed by time
wat can heal such hurts now?

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just some random drabbles.... enjoy

Gremlins are haunting,
flaunting and running,
laughing and playing,
all over the room.
Gremlins are killing,
and destroying,
what i hold dear.
Gremlins are sabotaging
my life...
Where's the gremlin killer
when you need him?

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I've got 2 other poems in hard copy but i have to wait until i get home to deal with that. read my dj if you want to know more.

A thousand goodbyes are wiped
with a smile and a hello
how does a broken heart heal
when it is continually hurt?
slow moving hands, nails trailing along
slow kisses. does this make it
all better?
The withdrawl you feel
when she says she is busy
every day hoping for another dose
but half the time it isn't available
how much can one take
of not having Her heart
a thousand goodbyes
nd nothing is gonna change what happens


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this is based off what i think not my own expierences

Falcon

Take me into your broken slumber
hurt me rape me in your arms
blood me love me undercover

Too many days have passed since that blunder
beat me break me rip me asunder
thousand knives heated up
frozen smile like artic frost

love me make me yours in entirety
Let me wwander into those f-ed up dreams
Torture me just i want to hear you say
that you love me.

desperate for love
desperate for pain
innocent in this world
take me in, break me Master
make it so i can no longer be in society

take me... break me... kill me today....

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Raven is afraid to go out in day,
Rain afraid to go out when it ain't rainin

Watch those broken girls as they play
one and two break a bone and hear them sing
they wear their black and make up to hide the pain

RAven walks to school hearing boys jeer
she's a product of a broken time
making love where she can
it isn't worth it for her...

Rain rides on the back of a bike
an abusive boyfriend towing her along
burns on her arms from cigarrettes
forcing her for that damn sex

RAin found Raven today
they found love then found pain.
Rain found raven killed herself today...

Now will keep her happy when it ain'trainin?

Now alone Rain ain't waiting long
Boyfriend kills her in an instant
for some imagined infraction

Raven-Rain dead and buried
who is next to fill the bloodied shoes?

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Hear me scream hear me shout
gods the world is torn asunder
what are you going to do?
hold me in those broken arms
starlit child who am i?

What ya gonna do
tommorow came and left you behind
creep alony you broken child
Imortal ages leaving you behind again

Starlit child come on home
Gods don't take her from me
The world is crying out for you
what are you going to do

Bloody life, roaring fire
where art thou the starlit child
star-lit.... child....

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Can you see it?
those broken wings
Angels of glory in heaven
but why so far from there?

"I am Fallen
not forgiven.
Small child be yourself,
love freely no matter the consequence.
Even if you will fall,
You'll fall with Grace.
Trust that your wings will bring you home again"

Angel why did your wings break?
Don't give up hope you have life.
Cry if you must but you have hope.
He'll take you back

"Child i am dying can't you see?
my wings won't heal and
the poisined arrow is too deep.
He won't take me back I love Him not.
Just follow my advice and all will be right"

Angel why?
but she never answered
for she just died.
Broken winged she had no hope
Love she said and so i will
Fallen or not it is my right

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Dark robotic lambs to the slaughter
tagged in numbers
marked with wings of fire
when will it all be over

Demon dreams controlling minds
banished by faith abound
no longer available in this life

inferno captures the dammend souls
and we keep going like lambs to the slaughter

Dark dreams and darker truths
fired long without hope

don't let that truth rape you
one mind controlling us all
why doth it be so?

darker dreams and brilliant lies
can't i just leave this world
go home... just leave this firey slaughter....

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staring eyes
tension building
waves are rolling
right on by

damn the sand
on which we slumber
falling stars within the night

though the tension keeps on building
making our cries delight
you are dancing on your back
hoping that i'll keep you alive

every night we dance this way
you live just a little more
though the rest damns your soul
you just keep coming back for more

cuff you on the chin
keep you in line
keep coming back for more
be my little whore

damn the life in which we slumber
making me the enemy again
though this damned love will kill you
drug you and bruise you
you keep coming back for more

damn the dreams in our slumber
there is nothing i wish more
for this life to die
no longer be tortured with your dyin eyes


damn itall

i just die damned...

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throw the cedar on the fire
burn that bitch build it higher
i can't stand her witchy ways
throw her in and hear her scream

Quickly build before the dawn
for that is when she should be gone
through the other in the water
but first knot her with the stones

Stone the third by the fire
let we laugh as she is dyin
burn the witch
and the spell
for the plauge is hers as well

Now they stab me in the back
turns out one is coming back
they will kill me in those dreams
damn all women
they can't please

take the embers
build a fire
take that cross
build it higher

we are christian
and no witch
will ever come
to this town again

(whisper) burn the bitch burn the witch
for all women are witches
they bewitch laughing eyes...
kill them all let them DIE
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they were written late at night... someone said jokingly that i am a closet emo kid. each one is seperated by the stars...

later

Falcon

first three are haiku's in french i refuse to translate them.

Launges

Les mots dans la tete,
pas en air, m'adorer mieux,
parce que pour moi, suelment


J'adore les mots à
ton bouche; le rhythm est beau
dans an autre launge


étudier en autre launge,
est étudier ton coeur et
étudier parler encore

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the quiet, sleepy, feral, contentness of a buzz.
a wonderful feeling truly
except when you tell more truth than needed
and the awful headache as you come down
thoukgh it is wonderful for a moment
to float in the clouds
I'm glad to be back on earth
with the expierence of being there
people may shout
but it is my life
and I am content again


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the last one i wrote last night after spending a late night in nice and going to a hooka bar. very fun but probably won't do it again. yell at me in person being as i wont be near a computer again until i come home

Falcon

1
Black murky waters;
with my tears falling down;
wing sagging in sorrow;
why did i come here?
why did i leave him?
the sound of the ocean
is louder than my cries.
I am ready to go home
in my heart, in the stars!

2
How many days until all the death will truly take its toll? how long until I crash from all the pressure? the fires of Hell burn me and I am caught in between two extremes. There is no happy medium for me. There is no true place that will accept me. I love earth and my charges protect earth, but where do I belong I am the gods' property and they will use me as they will. My soul will go where it needs to be. I just want to finally have an ending to my story; a resolution to it all.

3
Don't you just love the pretty collar?
The one that could kill me...
Don't you just love how life is?
I see myself in a cracked mirror,
a cracked truth where no one is satisfied.
There once was a time where i was truly happy;
but now all i will say is...
Fuck it all anyway.
There are a few sure ways for a resolution.
I will choose the most fun.

MY LIFE! MY WAY!
rip off all the chains
and be who you are.
the chains dont define you
unless you let them...

Falcon
1 a night in antibes depressed
2 today in a café
3 just right now. Fuck it all

angels and devils dancing all around

i used to have an angel,
but she left only her wings.
i used to have a devil;
who danced and told me things.
Where did they go?
i used to have a life,
before everything.
Where did it go?
Where did I go?

Falcon (written during a day that i was kitten and depressed)

The bell tolls the hour,
sounding like it calls death.
The days pass slowly,
but nothing of importance ever happens.
The bell tolls again,
ringing in the villagers
for an execution...
of an angel.
It happens more often
than you think.
May Angels be who they are
and be able to rest
when the times comes
for the bell to toll again.